Bonus!

Usually, that's just a "catch phrase" used when something goes right...but this time, it means I GOT A BONUS AT WORK that I wasn't anticipating!

Sweet! (Yet another "catch phrase" that has somehow found it's way into my vocabulary.)

So, one of the goals of my recent spiritual life has been to try to "find myself" again, after literally years of barely endurable stress--trying to sell the condo, getting married, moving away from what had been my life, Dave having a heart attack while I was in the process of settling into the new life, in a new city, with a new job, etc.....

Plus, before all of that stress started, I was single and unhappy for a long time.

Through these processes, I gradually came to realize that I had lost track of myself.

I cut my hair short (women in their 40's are supposed to cut off their hair, right?), and started dressing more conservatively. I fell away from my spiritual practices.

Anyway, I have recently realized that one of the ways in which I used to express my individuality was by how I would dress, and my overall outward appearance, including how I wear my hair.

I stopped cutting my hair about 2 and a half years ago, but I still have been wearing clothes that don't totally suit me.

When I first started at Medi Data, my 9 year job back in Illinois, I was called "the office Flower Child" because I dressed in a sort of "Bohemian" way.

Where am I going with all of this?

Since the stress level in my life has calmed substantially, I have been doing a lot more with my spiritual practices, which, in and of itself is a HUGE part of ME being ME....and one of my goals has been to search for myself again.

First, I went back to the natural henna hair dye.

Then--I recently had an awakening to an aspect of my sense of self expression through something so odd as being properly fitted for the right bra size.

I know....whatever....

But that made me suddenly want to throw away all of my frumpy, boring clothes, and rebuild my wardrobe!!

So--BONUS MONEY! WHEEEEE!!

We went to a huge Goodwill store yesterday, and did REALLY well. Dave got some things, too, which he needed....and we are headed out again today to see what else we can find.

This part of finding myself again is FUN!!