Burdens

Well, the tax refund for this time around is gone. It was a pretty good one, now that we have two mortgages--my stupid condo, and now this beautiful house.

God knows it would have been even better if I had a business to take a loss on, but one client in a year does not a business make.

We used most of the refund to pay off, once and for all, the thousands of dollars that remained from Dave's heart attack in 2009.

Then, we used what was left of the refund to pay off most of the carpet in the condo, since I was running out of "same as cash" time, and had only been able to pay off a few hundred out of the $2000.00 bill.

The money that was going to pay the medical bill can now be applied elsewhere.

There's still several hundred owing on the stupid carpet, though...but at least now it's down below $500.00.

We also tried to consolidate some of our credit debt by doing balance transfers, trying to reduce the number of cards with balances.

We were still paying on the card we used to move me down here ($3500.00 was the grand total for that grand adventure), and sadly, when we had more of Dave's medical bills to pay, we also added a lot of credit debt buying stuff like gasoline and groceries, and paying vet bills.

Unfortunately, the balance transfer plan didn't work out, and our requests were not filled as we expected them to be. We were able to reduce the number of cards with balances by two, but had hoped to reduce it by four.

Thankfully, Dave got a yearly bonus this month, and that will make it possible for us to take that vacation we've been dreaming about.

I need to go home.

I need to be around people who know me, love me, and respect me.

I mean, Dave does, but he's only one person.

His parents love me, but they don't know me...not really.

And his son? I still have no idea....all I know is that he never comes over anymore, even though we've made it clear that our door is always open to him.....and then he complains to his granny that he's lost both of his parents now (his mom was never very involved in his life, even when they all three still lived together).

He also didn't help us move, has refused to do things to help us with the house that he previously promised to do, and has developed an attitude about paying Dave back on a loan that goes back several years, which he was happily making payments on before I came along.

Of course my natural tendency is to assume this is all my fault. That he has changed his mind about me, and doesn't like me any more.

Dave keeps trying to get him to come over so they can talk it out....but he keeps not showing up.

In the meantime, though, my dear friend Jessie is going to come visit!! She's driving all the way down from Ann Arbor, so she will pick her mom up on the way so it's not such a long road all by herself.

They'll stay for a couple of days. I can't wait!

I managed to sprain my left shoulder yesterday. I was getting dressed, and pulled my shirt on. Something made a loud "snap" sound, and I was suddenly plunged into a world of head spinning, nauseating pain.

Tried to tough it out, and went to work. The pain was all I could see or think of.

So I went on line and found a chiropractor in our insurance network, and was able to get in yesterday. He did electro stim, ultra sound, and deep tissue massage on the shoulder.

It was beyond excruciating.....but today, it's better, so I am very glad I went.
Living on ibuprofin and rest for a couple of days, I guess.

I was sorry that I had to use 6 hours of my saved up time, but I couldn't work with that pain. We, the chiropractor and I, both think that this is a repetitive stress injury from doing the handles on the elliptical. From here on out, when I use that exercise machine, I should not pull so hard on the handles, and not work my arms THAT way with any intensity.

Under orders to ice and rest and use a sling for a few days. I go back to the doctor on Wednesday.

I hope I'll be able to dance by Tuesday!

So---I'm just in a mood, I guess. Feeling old and burdened and pissed off.