Just. Wow.

Maybe it's a short coming.  Maybe it's a blessing.

But my natural tendency is to think the best of people.  To trust them.  To take them at their word.

My family knows that this has gotten me into trouble, especially with men, in my past.

However, there are things in our natures that we cannot change.  There are things we shouldn't change.

I am not an innocent. I just tend to have faith in people.

I gave notice at Integris Physicians Billing Service, and it was announced to all of my co workers by the middle of this past week.

I have gotten some very sincere congratulations, and some heart felt good wishes.  Even a nice card and gift from one sweetie.

But the part that really, truly stuns and amazes me....is the bullshit I have now seen revealed.

I have gotten sneers.  I have gotten "shame on you," and "you're a traitor,"  and one who actually IS a friend has told me that my former work buddies are "snitching on" me.

He said that it's good that I am going when I am....because a shit storm is brewing up with my name all over it.

Snitching on me?  Shit storm?

For WHAT?!

I have done nothing, absolutely nothing, but keep my head down, work harder than anyone else, and been friendly and kind to EVERYONE.  Even the ones I do not like.

Because I tend to think the best of people, and I cannot be unkind to ANYONE.

(I think this makes it so I am always shocked when people turn against me or don't like me.  I know, logically, that not EVERYBODY can like me....but sometimes the acid with which people express their dislike really does surprise me. Maybe because I can't do the same to others.)

So, if anyone is snitching, they have to be making up lies. 

There is NOTHING in my work record to snitch about.  There has been NOTHING in my behavior or treatment of others to snitch about.  I have been the exemplary employee, all sweetness and kindness and hard working.

But the situation in that office is such that those who are NOT looking for new jobs to beat the race to outsource are probably not CAPABLE of looking for new jobs.

They were lucky to get this job, because they are borderline illiterate, or they lied about having a high school diploma and have gotten away with it so far.  Or they have no credit.

And the management is the same way.  My boss's boss can't write a business letter.  And she's the operations manager, and she just got a big fat promotion ahead of the outsource.

Yeah.

So-that aside...the ones who are sticking around are desperate.  They are holding on to the corporate lies (and they are getting THICK), and they are holding out hope that there will be jobs offered after the outsource dust settles.

What they are thinking is that they have to make themselves look as good as possible so that they make the cut.

So, they are making stuff up in an effort to build themselves up.

That's the only reason I can think of.....because, while I have complained about work here, and in other formats, I have never, ever said anything to anyone at work, and I have always excelled at what they have given me to do.

This has never gotten me anywhere, because I am an outsider....my former boss even joked once about the only reason she ever spoke to me about anything was to hear my goofy Chicago accent.

No, really. She did.

But.. I have a work ethic, and so, I have kept working hard, even after telling Dave "I really should relax and do what everyone else here does...watch talk shows on my computer, shop on line, sit around and talk....but I CAN'T!"

Anyway, despite my decreasing wages (3 pay cuts in 3 years), and being penalized for not clocking in at EXACT TIMES while my cube mates come and go whenever they want, manipulating their times so they can sleep at lunch, etc....I turn in log sheets with 80-100 tasks a day, compared to those I have seen of my team mates, which have 15-30.  Literally.

And my team mates have both been there 15 years.

One of them is sincerely incapable of writing a sentence.  She literally writes at a second grade level..IF that.

I know. She has had me proof read and correct all of her emails and letters for 3 and a half years.  She has had me pre-write letters for her to keep in her computer for after I'm gone.

 I completely re-wrote her resume so she wouldn't look like a complete idiot when she has to apply for whatever job they offer her after the transition.

I have helped her keep up with her work, because she can't do it herself.

That's just how I roll....

But knowing her story as well as I do leads me to suspect the desperation I mentioned above.

So, anyway...One of my other friends said "you HAD to know this kind of thing would happen! You KNOW these people!"

But, no, I didn't.  I really, really didn't know this kind of thing would happen.  I haven't seen it happen with any of the 10 who left before me.  Why me?

She couldn't answer that one.

Dave says "That's why I hate people."

But I don't hate people.  I can't.

And this, this....really hurts.

But it also makes it really, really easy to walk away.  And I can't wait to do that!