Dead and Co.

So.

Back in January, on my first chemo day...there was a big announcement made that THE LAST EVER performance by the Grateful Dead would take place at Soldier Field in Chicago in July.

I have posted what happened in my blog back in July.

There was much hype, and much ado, and people ran a fund raiser for me so that I could be assured of being there despite the fact that I am fighting cancer this year, and that most of our money was going toward my exorbitant medical bills.

And it happened.

Thanks to this awesome fund raiser, I was in Chicago on the LAST DAY the Dead would ever play.

Right?

Wrong.

Not more than a few weeks after this historic event, another announcement was made.

A new band, calling themselves Dead and Company (the core four without bassist Phil Lesh), was going to carry on with the legacy.

John Mayer would play lead in place of Trey Anistasio.  Still the Dead, basically.  Still playing their music.  Still doing that thang that I THOUGHT I was part of the grand finale of....

Sigh.

At first, I was sort of pissed off, because so many people had gone to so much trouble to raise money so that I, a theoretically dying cancer patient, could be at THE LAST DEAD SHOW EVER....

and then, with this announcement...and it wasn't the last one anymore.

Really?  What??

What the actual fuck.

The experience of being there in July, at THE LAST DEAD SHOW EVER was awesome.  Truly.

I had a treasure to keep in my memory.

But then this.

I didn't know how to feel about it.

Then last night, my brother called me and said there was a free live stream from Madison Square Garden and that I really should tune it.

And I did.
And holy crap.

....I am no longer pissed off.

I am awed.

The legacy is going to continue...and maybe, just maybe, I am too.

Maybe I will be able to see them some day if they ever come close enough for us to go.

Because DAMN.