Sunday, January 1, 2023

Happy New Year!

 We enjoyed our usual quiet New Year's Eve yesterday... with appetizers, and cool beer, and the hot tub, and watching "Harvey," with James Stewart.

Champagne at 10:30pm, because we were both too relaxed and sleepy to stay up.

While Dave snored through midnight, though, I was awake because of all of the usual fireworks and gun shots.

Someone on the back of our block had a semi-automatic weapon, and someone else on the back of our block called the cops on them, HAHAHA!!

I just hope that wasn't because the bullets rained down into someone's house.

Today is supposed to be a spectacular, 65 degree day, so we are headed out to the woods soon.

In other news, I have my first treatment scheduled.

After our day off tomorrow, I will work at the office on Tuesday, then Wednesday morning, I have to go get an echocardiogram done to establish a baseline.  I will also stop and get my blood draw completed.  Then, I will clock in and work however many hours are left of the day.

Thursday morning, I will clock in and work the first half of the day, and after I clock out for lunch, the rest of the afternoon will be spent in the chemo chair.

The nurse who called me said that the first treatment is the longest, at about 3 and a half hours.

She also said I am not allowed to have a visitor with me, but that she could make an exception for me and Dave.  

(this was not my usual nurse)

That's about all the news for today.  We are headed out.  Later, we will do the traditional cleaning out of the fridge, and a friend is coming over to help us finish off the appetizers we didn't get around to cooking  yesterday.

Happy New Year, gentle readers!  May 2023 bring you good health, security, and happiness. 


Sunday, December 25, 2022

Merry Christmas!

 I almost forgot it's Sunday!

 Our Christmas eve dinner last night was lovely.  Everyone, who said they would be coming, came.  The food was great, and being together was even better.

I got to do my usual Christmas eve things...and, though I always miss my family most painfully on this one night of the year, my heart was full.

This morning, I got up and threw frozen biscuits into the oven to bake, and put the coffee on.  We emptied our stockings, and opened our gifts, had our biscuits and cold ham, and I talked to my sister and brother in law.

It's been very nice. 

There are no other plans for today, and we will indulge our new tradition of ordering Chinese food for dinner.

There were a few years when I made an elaborate dinner for myself and Dave on Christmas day, but that's so much work, after several days of SO MUCH WORK to get the house clean, put up decorations, and coordinate a pretty table, and guests....

I'll be making gin punch to sip on, and we will just catch as catch can for a mid day meal.  There's plenty to snack on.

Starting to put stuff back where it was (we clear off lots of surfaces for this party, and there's nowhere to put any of the stuff other than load it into my office and close the door, HAHA!), and am doing the table cloth and napkins laundry.

Tomorrow, we have one more day off, and will take down the rest of the decorations, and put the tree back in the shed.

This has been a lovely break from work.  I am SO glad I got the day after Winter Solstice/Yule off from work!  Not only was it a nice way for me to experience my religious holiday, but it gave us an extra day to get stuff done for Christmas.

Even though there was a minor blizzard that day, with killing cold, and 60 mile per hour winds.  We were able to get our errand done, and got back home safely, and had the rest of the day to start getting ready for Christmas Eve.

In other news, we are still waiting for insurance to authorize my new treatment plan.  I will be going back into IV treatment, and will be "in the chair" every three weeks, indefinitely.

(Unless the new protocol doesn't work, or I react badly, this will go on indefinitely)

I guess I should be glad that I have hundreds of hours of sick time saved up at work, as I will have to start taking a half day off every three weeks, just like the "old days."

Both my doc and nurse are feeling confident that I will tolerate this medication well, and my nurse said I shouldn't lose my hair again, either, so that was good news.

I'm just relieved that we have a plan.  I can put it out of my mind now, until we start to schedule the infusions.

Hope you've had a lovely winter holiday time, and I'll see you next year!



Sunday, December 18, 2022

Warrior Mode

 The scan results were not good.

My nurse called, and said "there's some progression."  So, when she offered to give me the details, I declined.  I didn't want to obsess over it all weekend. 

She said I could stop taking the Verzenio, which pleased me no end.

So, I suppose it's possible that the progression happened during the 3 months we were waiting for the genomic testing results to come back, and then the Verzenio halted it.... Or, it could have been happening gradually over the full 6 months. 

Doesn't really matter, I guess.

I will see Doc on Tuesday, hear the details, and we will decide on the next steps. 

This weekend is all about being busy and distracted, and it's working wonders!  I've slept SO well both nights, without having to get up multiple times to pee.

After a busy day of errands, last night, we went to the Immersive Van Gogh experience at the convention center.  We had purchased the tickets in MARCH, and looked forward to it all year.

It was SO COOL!

The thing that surprised me most was how emotional I got.  I soaked my mask, HAHA!

We came home from errands without a few of the items on my list, because Oklahoma grocery stores SUCK... so we have to go back out today for those remaining items, but other than that, we will be staying home.

It's tree-trimming day! 

I've got my plan for the Solstice medieval feast, and I will have friends around my Christmas Eve table again this year.  Both will be lovely.

Wishing you all a Solstice week filled with light, warmth, and love, no matter the source.  If you celebrate Hannukah and Christmas, wishing you happiness and many gifts!

Sunday, December 11, 2022

Exposed

 Our office party was nice, this past Wednesday.

The catered lunch was pretty good (the turkey was totally dried out), and it was great to see everyone all at once.

No one was coughing, or sniffling, everyone was well, and we had a good time.  I made the conscious decision to NOT wear a mask, because everyone was well, and there would be lots of food, and treats.

And then. 

On Friday, three people were off sick.  One admitted to testing positive for Covid. 

We got the email from the director very late in the day.  I replied that I needed to know if it was anyone with whom I had direct contact.... She was at the party, she saw who played the games with whom, and who sat next to whom.... 

She did not reply before I had to clock out, so I left my email program connected, and we headed out to do our grocery shopping. 

When we got back, she had replied an hour after we all had to clock out....but she refused to answer me as I asked her to.... (don't name names, just say YES, it was someone you were directly interacting with, or NO, it was not).  Apparently, she does not understand that I have a compromised immune system.

SO, I had to assume that YES, it had been someone I sat next to (who was one of the ones off sick).

There was nothing to be done for it.  

If I had brought it home, it was already in the house, and in Dave, so we just had to wait it out.

The current incubation period is estimated at 2.8 days, so, I figured if we got to Sunday (today) symptom free, that we'd be okay.

And we are, thank the Gods!

I have kn95 masks in my tote for the office tomorrow.  I have a face to face meeting with the new director, and with my new "supervisor".  If they are unmasked when I walk into the office, I will hand them masks.

I'm assuming, though, that they will have the sense to be wearing them already.

And, if the person who I think it was is not there tomorrow, that will be my confirmation that it was the person I sat next to, as we ate and laughed.

In other news, we have had more desperately-needed rain the past few days!  More is coming tomorrow. This is very good, and goes against the predictions we heard, earlier in the year, of a dry winter ahead.

Lastly, my 3-month scans are this coming Thursday.  I am hoping that my nurse will call me before the week is out, like she usually does.  My doctor appointment to actually discuss the results is not until the 20th.

We are dragging the Yuletide decorations out of the shed later today, and, hopefully, will get the tree put up. 

My anxiety is pretty high, regarding the scans, and this will be a nice distraction, and bring in a little cheer.

Have a good week!


Sunday, December 4, 2022

The one time...

 ... that I didn't take my phone on a woods walk.

It was Dave's idea to get up early today and go to Bluff Creek park, where we have often seen deer. 

This is the park where I really like to go off trail, and into the woods, to follow the deer tracks.

We got up moderately early and went.  It had rained overnight, and it was 35 degrees, so our hope was that there would be very few people there, and that the deer would be out and about.

I put on my lined pants and parka, Dave got his heavy jacket, and off we went.

We were not disappointed.

As soon as we were crossing the foot bridge into the park, there was a doe and her fawn right near the bridge.  

Just over the bridge, another doe crossing the paved trail.

Then.... the moment of moments....after we walked a ways down the southward path, I spotted two bucks to the right of the paved trail.  I saw the one who was up and foraging first. He was a smallish 4 point.

But then, a moment later, I noticed him:

A magnificent 8 point buck, reclining in the grass, mostly hidden by the scrub.  He was just stunning.... He saw us, but didn't spook.  They're pretty used to people, after all.

We stood, for several minutes, admiring the pair of gentlemen.  

At that moment, I wished that I had bothered to bring my phone, so that I could get pictures. My phone takes much better pictures than Dave's, but he was able to get one.

As we continued our walk, we continued to see deer... 11, in all.  

I'd been wanting, for years, to see a big buck, up close and safely.... so today fulfilled that wonderfully!

Not much else to report. Did I mention that my scan is scheduled for December 15th?  Follow up appointment is December 20th, so I get to clock out early on the day before my days off for Solstice and Christmas. 

With the change in management, I was able to get the days I wanted, at that time of year, for the first time at this job.  I am very well pleased about that!

Our office holiday luncheon is this coming Wednesday.  It will be nice to see everyone together all at once.  If everyone can come, this will be the first time we have all been in the office together since before the pandemic.  

With the exception of the large number of people who left in February, that is. Good riddance, I say.

Anyway, I've got most of my holiday gift shopping done.  Now, just waiting for things to arrive, so that I can wrap them and pack them up to send.

Have a good week. 




Sunday, November 27, 2022

Cabin #14

 Our annual Thanksgiving retreat was much needed, and went off without a hitch!

We had cabin #14 for the first time, and really liked it.  The fireplace draws VERY well, and is wide open.  No little insert, here, and no weird metal plate in front of the grate, like in cabin #7.

We have now had most of the stone cabins in the park, with the exception of #8-10, and we have determined that #14 is our favorite.

The front steps are a bit difficult to navigate, but we managed.

It was raining as we drove out on Wednesday, but it let up in time for our arrival and unloading.  

We spent a little too much time lingering over lunch (thanks, Dave), so we didn't get to the park until after 4:30.  The office was closed, and we had to get our key out of a little locker.

We ordered up 5 bundles of firewood from the cabin-area manager (this is a separate entity from the state-run office, and they were still open), and had a lovely first night fire.

The heavy rain on the roof started after we had settled in with our fire, and it was a lovely thing to just listen to the rain while the fire crackled.  I made the cranberries, then, too, so the cabin smelled heavenly.

Thanksgiving dawned with deer roaming right in front of the cabin, and a light rain falling. There was a buck and three does.  The buck was missing his left antler.  We hoped that he had won that fight. 

It rained all day, so we mostly stayed in.  I got the fire going in the mid-afternoon, and kept it going well into the night.

We did get out for a short walk before that, though, when the rain had let up.  It was absolutely silent outside... no wind, no people (apparently, the rain kept them all inside). We went partway up behind the cabins, where there were little rivulets of rain water laughing between the rocks.

Our  feast was really good, with herb and lemon roasted Cornish hens, fireplace potatoes, my green bean casserole (no canned soup, and lots of flavor), and cranberry orange compote. Pecan praline crusted pumpkin pie for dessert (and we still have some for breakfast today)!

There was wine, and reading, and music, and we used an extra bundle of the wood.  It kept the damp away, and this made the main room of the cabin nice and cozy.

On Friday, the skies were clearer, so people were out, and about, and LOUD.  

There was this one teenaged boy who must have been bored out of his mind, and he managed to drive all of the deer deeper into the woods to escape him, first thing in the morning.

You know...right as they would have been coming to forage for acorns in front of our cabin.

Grumble.

After breakfast, Dave went into town for more wine, and to look for a kitchen gadget or two, which he didn't find.  

While he was gone, I went on a solitary ramble.  

I stayed on the road, because I still have some vertigo, and didn't want to risk going to my favorite place alone, as it is up on the ridge, and the trail (which isn't really a trail, but a wildlife track), is right next to a drop off.

Anyway, I walked well away from the cabins, and the noisy people, and there, I was met by no less than 10 deer: one here, two there, 5 over there...quietly making their way through the deeper woods.  I stayed to the road, but they did not mind me, and we walked together for a good hour or so.

Until that same annoying kid came stomping along, with his dog, and his loudness. Why did he need to be talking to his dog at full volume? Oh, that's right....teenage boys only have one volume.

(I have often said that teenage boys are made of noise and stink)

Grumble again.... sigh.

Dave had come back, but was not worried about me, as we know this park very well, and we know that I need this time alone in nature.  That's part of why this retreat needs to happen every year.

We got another bundle of firewood, and then we walked together, up onto the ridge.  Further this time, than when the rain had let up on Thursday.... All the way up to the point where the trail becomes too dangerous.

I would have gone on, were I younger, and still had that absolute confidence in my hiking abilities that I once had. 

Anyway, we lingered up there, in the quiet, with the birds and the breeze.  It was heavenly. 

There were no vultures roosting in the highest trees this year, so that was nice.  

After that, we came back down, and walked past the cabins, and the noise (there was that boy again, firing a toy gun that made a racket, and playing catch with his much older brother), along the road- where I had gone earlier.

We saw a doe with a pair of twins, and heard a buck snorting up on the highest part of the ridge. We never saw the buck, but we got his message, and moved on.

All day Friday, we eat left overs, so Friday is really my day to completely relax.  

Yes, walking 5000-plus steps, out in nature, IS relaxing to me!!

We did more reading, and had a good, long fireplace session.  I was able to do some focused spiritual work to round out the day.

I saved the two, biggest pieces of wood for last, and just before bed, stood them up over the intensely hot bed of coals, leaning against each other, and the back of the dogs, like the letter A.

They burned well into the night, leaving nothing but ash, and the cabin was kept warm. I never turned on the noisy heater, which I had used the previous two nights.

It rained again on Saturday, which made packing up the car more of a challenge than unpacking was.  I woke up in pain, too, which also posed a challenge for cleaning the cabin, and packing everything up.

But we made it, and checked out with 6 minutes to spare.  I told the ladies in the office that we have been doing this Thanksgiving stay since 2010.  They asked if we always stay in #14, and I said that I didn't know we could request a specific cabin anymore....(since we can no longer book next year at check out time, and now have to wait a month, and do it on line).

They said that there is a "notes" space on the reservation page of the web site, and assured me that we could request a specific cabin for next year, and they would do everything they could to book it for us.

Yay!

The rainy drive home was harrowing, as there were times when visibility was practically nil, but, once home, it had gone to a drizzle. Unloading the car was a much less-wet process than loading had been!

Laundry is done, cabin dishes, and other bits, have gone through the dish washer, and a list has been made of a few items we'd like to add to the cabin kit.  We left our oven thermometer in the oven, by mistake, and need a new one of those, too.

This morning, Dave is going to Costco, and I am going to finish putting stuff away, and re-loading the cabin box.

Back to reality tomorrow, with my office day.  Sigh.

Have a good week!



Sunday, November 20, 2022

Thanksgiving is coming....

 The news is that the kitty we were calling Cinnamon has settled nicely into her new home!

There was a crew at the neighboring house this past week to mow, another to clean, and another to clear junk out of the shed.  Finally, a workman of some kind was there on Friday, making all kinds of racket. Not sure what he was up to...

Then, on Friday afternoon, the house was listed for rent.  I hope our friend gets a MUCH better tenant this time.  For our sake, mostly.

Thanksgiving is this coming week.  

We are finished with our grocery shopping, and have started throwing things in boxes.  I always manage to forget something, and Dave has to go out to the store in the nearby town to buy it before they close.

It's always an adventure to figure out what it is in time....

We have been assigned cabin #14, which is one of the few we have never had before.  

It's the one where the two roads meet, which is why we never asked for it, back when we were allowed to ask for a specific cabin.  However, we have snooped inside of it (when other guests were leaving), and it has a REALLY cool fire place. It's full size, with big, iron doors.

The cabin is similar to #13, in that it is one of the biggest, with the enclosed front porch, overlooking the lake.  

It's also RIGHT where the deer pass by on their daily dawn and dusk movements.  Or, at least, it has been.  

If they've been doing any major disruptive work this year, the deer may have changed course.

In other news, I'd been having more and more issues with my right ear, my sinuses constantly draining down my throat, and ultimately developed laryngitis, and a sore throat, this past week.  

Did a Covid test, since, you know... we were at a concert on the 10th.  Thankfully, it came up negative.  (Dave has been fine, as well, so Covid was not likely,  but we had to be sure.) 

Called my nurse, and got a Z pack.  

The symptoms started to clear up right away, and I am feeling much better.  

The vertigo is still there (it's been less intense than at the beginning, but is still there), which is MOST annoying, and going on six weeks at this point. However, my ear no longer hurts, the throat pain was gone after the first day on the antibiotic, and every other symptom is better.

Unfortunately, Z pack is one of the only antibiotics I can tolerate, but apparently, it doesn't get along well with Verzenio.  I have had absolutely horrible diarrhea this past week.  Joy of joys!  

I've never had this much trouble with that particular issue in my entire life all put together.  

First, the Verzenio did it to me at the beginning, and now this.

Hopefully, things are back to the new Verzenio-induced normal, now. 

I will load up on pro-biotics, and continue to drink a lot of water.

The night time side effects of the Verzenio are also balancing out, so I am not having to get up 8 times a night with a full bladder.

All in all, I have lost seven pounds since starting the Verzenio.  It has caused my appetite to change, and heart burn to become a daily / nightly thing, as well as the diarrhea, and night time pee fest.  

All I can say is that it better be working!

We will do a scan next month.

Anyway, other than the exciting concerts, and Thanksgiving coming up, this has not been a pleasant autumn for me, with all of this going on.  

I am looking forward to our escape to the cabin, and a few days to re-group.

Today, Dave says that will be doing all of his pre-trip chores.  He almost always manages to put major ones off until after the last possible minute, and we end up leaving late.  SO, we shall see what he manages to get done today.

I will be as encouraging as I can!  I hate to miss one minute of our time at the cabin!

Wishing my readers (there are 5 of you, apparently), a most enjoyable, safe, and healthy Thanksgiving holiday.  May your hearts overflow with gratitude for all of the blessings in your lives.