Sweet relief

 I haven't read the reports yet, but there is no cancer in my brain.

The only thing the PA said on Thursday was that the MRI found normal, age-related changes, and nothing else.

SO... I will read both the PET and the MRI reports SOME DAY, but I am in no hurry, as I recover from the most intense anxiety/fear I have felt in years.

My regular treatment program will continue, with my next treatment next Thursday.  Next regular testing (cardiac ultrasound, and chest CT) will be in December.

I continue to take HUGE, heaving sighs of relief.... it has been 4 days, but I still feel myself decompressing.

I still couldn't sleep on Thursday night, but have done SO much better the past two nights.  Vodka, and watching funny movies, have both helped, HAHA!

The weather has still been record-threateningly hot.  Yesterday, it was 95 when I was trying to start putting out some of my Halloween decor.

Needless to say, I didn't get much done.

Today should be more comfortable, though, and there's a nice breeze, so I will continue today.

We haven't even bought mums or pumpkins yet, because it's been so hot.  It's quite sad, and probably the "new normal," due to climate change.

We got our mail-in ballots sent off last week, and I have scheduled our "Crane Spotting" weekend for the weekend after the election.   

Hopefully, we will be celebrating that weekend, and not trying to figure out how to leave the country.

I worry about Dave, especially, because in 2016, he really came close to having a full-on break down. 

Fortunately, he has recently had an adjustment to his psych meds, and has been prescribed to go back to talk therapy.

The timing on that is fortuitous, indeed!

He is going to start making calls tomorrow, to try to find a therapist and get scheduled.  His former therapist relocated, and he never sought out a new one, so it needs to happen.

Got all of my chores done yesterday, and made a grilled steak and potatoes dinner.  I could not eat more than a couple of bites of the steak, it was really weird.  It was delicious, but I just ... didn't want it.

Maybe lingering anxiety caused that.... I can't eat when I am anxious.

Anyway, today should be relatively lazy, unless I decide to follow through on emptying the hot tub, cleaning it, and refilling it.   The water is still okay, though, so I may let that go until next weekend, when it will DEFINITELY be cooler out.

I am making chicken marsala for dinner, and have already put a load of towels in to wash.  

Dave did a special chore for me yesterday, and has been assigned another one today, and he actually got up and DID the one yesterday, instead of it taking weeks!

Hopefully, there will be a repeat of that today.

Have a lovely week!