Anxiety

My trainer isn't in tomorrow, either...so I have been feeling waves of anxiety on and off all day.

I have no idea how to do daily census on a Monday. That's the thing I have to do in the morning to have ready to present to the department heads. It's a way to verify the previous day's resident count. Monday, it would seem, should be different than the other days of the week, but I don't know.
Do I do the weekend days, too? Or just Friday? If I have to do the weekend days, too, that means the process has to be done three times in the first half hour of the day, instead of once.

*sigh*

When I was hired, the story was that I would have plenty of support and training.
When I asked for clarification, the answer was that I would have at least three weeks of training before I was left alone.

I got two days. Two DAYS.

At least I have the trainer's cell phone number.

I am trying to relax. I understand that feeling anxiety is normal when starting a new job, and that, in itself, helps me relax a little.

But two days of overwhelming, break-free training, and then leave me alone for two days?

That's just plain absurd.

I am still trying to think positively, though, and to remain excited about this huge opportunity. I think that the fear of failure just has me by the throat right now.